| Once again Friday rolls around, and I had to come into work for only an hour, from 12-1. It really kind of sucks because 12pm is right smack dab in the middle of the day and an hour really is not significant as far as payment goes. I'm not in the most chipper mood if you haven't noticed. My mom and sister were supposed to come and take me out to lunch to Gina's today, but I got a message this morning from my mom saying that she had forgotten about some prior things she had to do. Not only was I looking forward to getting a free lunch, I was looking forward to seeing them both. Oh well, I'm going home tomorrow night so it's not that big of a deal I suppose.
So, last night, being at the KABA MODERN tryouts turned out to be a sort of SPOPUNION because there were so many staffers not only trying out, but also in the audience to support. It toally made me miss all of the Brownies, and especially when I saw Chris Clemente and Josie, who I shared my last SPOP weekend with, I almost started crying. It made me so sad to tell them that I wasn't applying to SPOP again this year, but instead was doing the Cambridge program. I know Cambridge will be amazing, but for the time being, I'm still really sad at the prospect of missing all the fun and memories SPOP provides. Rachel made this profound statement the other day when I ran into her about SPOP. She said I'm applying because "It's almost like I NEED SPOP." Though that statement may seem brief and meaningless to most people, I knew exactly what she was talking about. For so many people, SPOP serves as a lifeline. I mean SPOP appears to be a totally altruistic program because the staffers VOLUNTARILY dedicate their summers to incoming UCI students and their parents. It's really rather decieving though because you as a staffer really gain so much more than you give. It really is indescribable. I honestly think that my summer filled of SPOP was for sure one of the happiest and rewarding times of my life. The friendships, the memories, the crazy times, the lives you touch, the way in which people impact you, and the love that ties everything together is so unique. In a way, I'm glad that in not trying out for SPOP again this summer, I can preserve my memories from last summer the way they were, and not have them muddled by new a new summer of SPOP. I also know that in not applying I'm giving one of the wonderful Brownies another chance at making staff again this year. Maybe I'm just telling myself these things to rationalize my decision of not re-applying. I'm so glad I finally got out my feelings about SPOP because there were countless times throughout the summer that I wanted to pick up my journal and write about the fantastic time I was having, but I was too busy having fun with my Brownies. I feel really bad that I've been so MIA, but just know that you Brownies always always will have a special place in my heart.
Anyways, I went to tryouts especially to see Danielle who shook it like there was no tomorrow, and I ended up seeing a ton of people I knew that were also trying out. I seriously felt like I was at American Idol tryouts or something, it was intense because there were soooooo many people there to watch the tryouts. I'm so glad I went. After I left, I was totally in the mood to dance and get my groove on :). Tomorrow I have my HA interview. and I'm not really nervous about it. The only thing I'm dreading is having to be on campus ALLLL day long on a Satruday. That's gonna kinda suck! OK, well off to the fantastical world of "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix"  |
